I understand what it is like to feel your future for yourself, your family, and your career could be in question. It's hard not to think about the possiblities, especially if your dx is pretty new. You have, and are, working hard to assure a good future for you kids. Your thoughts are natural. Give yourself a little time to get use to it.

Hopefully it won't be an all or nothing thing. I have had to make major cut backs, while not quitting everything entirely. I've been a teacher for 24 years. I have a masters degree and am currently a reading specialist. My dream was to teach in a university before my retirement. I probably won't get to do that, but plan on staying active and using what I have now for as long as possible. It's just about making myself slow down and not expecting as much from myself as I used to. I can still make a difference for some. I may not be able to move the mountain, but maybe can still shake it up a little bit!

As you have seen, there are a lot of smart folks here at NT. They offer good advice. Be easy on yourself...but don't give up hope!