So sorry Av8girl, it has to be incredibly frustrating. You sound like you are fighting so hard to hang on to what you currently enjoy.

I can only imagine how frustrating it will be one day for me, too. You obviously chose a topic many people can relate too.

I have pre-MS losses, because I had a very bad accident and had to stay home on disability for a year, mostly in pain. That is how I incidently found out I had the beginning stages of MS, at 50.

I survived slightly breaking my neck, and could not move anything from the neck down, until the pressure was taken off. God must still want me to be here for a good reason. I could have easily been Christopher Reeves.

I learned how to cope and got by with quite a bit of help from friends and family. However, I wlll never be able to ski again or ice skate. I would be afraid to fall and negatively influence the rest of my back around my fusion.

It took away quite a bit of my savings and a year towards my pension. Now I don't know how long l will be well enough to keep working. All in all, I just tell myself, things could have been worse.