((((((Lori)))))),
It's you -- it's REALLY you!!
What a way to find each other, huh
I'm sorry about your cousin. It took me years after my Brother's suicide to realize that some people just cannot live in this realm -- it's just too hard and too painful. Even though I'm sorry your cousin's gone; I hope she got the relief that she was looking for.
The hard part comes now -- the surviving. Just let the days flow around you. Welcome life. Appreciate life. You'll get to the day when the memories are stronger than the pain.
BIG HUGS (and love).
Barb