On Thursday I have an appointment with the MS clinic in my city that has the "famous doc." They said the waiting list was 1+ years. I signed up right after I got diagnosed. I have waited 9 months so I guess it's good I got in a little earlier. I'm switching to the clinic just to be in a place that specializes in MS.

Anyhow, I'm feeling super nervous about this visit. My stomach is in knots. The last big visit was the second opinion to verify I had MS that came from the doc. who described my brain as swiss cheese (not so nice and very traumatic). I've failed on the interferons and copaxone. I'm afraid of what I might have to try next. Right now I am on no medication and I feel so much better!--it's been much easier to pretend I don't have MS. Somehow going to the doc. and having to talk about meds, the MRI's and my future will just make the MS more real. But I know I probably need to keep trying meds until I find something I can tolerate.

I'm scared to death of what the neuro might tell me. I just don't think I can take another traumatic encounter. I feel like going to the new doctor will be like re-living the whole diagnosis all over again. In fact, I feel like today I am re-living the shocking out the blue diagnosis all over again.

Any advice on how to approach the new neuro OR on how to minimize the anxiety?

Thanks all.