Please Niki...don't worry about being a dark cloud for talking about what you are feeling and what you have to go through. That's the reason for this forum...it's to hold each other up when we're falling apart..it's for those awful anniversary dates.
We kid alot here because if we didn't, we couldn't stand the pain. We wonder a lot and sometimes I worry that new people won't understand that we really do "get it"....
I loved the poem and wasn't familiar with it. I hope having this service will bring some closure for you..some peace with your dads' decision.
We are here for you.