John you do not sound depressed to me. Actually you seem to be trying to live your life with it's pain and limations with dignityand being a man, are trying to keep your ego up. Nothing wrong with that. Only please learn to let someone in to help you a little, from time to time. Usually folks want to help or console out of love and caring and really don't know what else to do.
If you do have to use some equipment for getting around you'll still be every bit a MAN...only a man that needs: just a little help.
In my situation I sometimes use a cane and a rollater, along with having to use my mobility scooter too. Being 65 and a woman makes it easier. After all being a bit fluffy(better than the fat word), everyone expects something like that out of "old ladies."
My hubby can't hear but refuses to use a hearing aide. Male ego thing. UGH, I AM his ears! LOL
I wish the best for you. Gaye