well..................I have been up all night just crying my heart out. I decided to pour it all out in a letter to him. I have put this letter and the others I wrote that were too personal to share, along with the poems......a picture...in a Father's Day card......I am putting them in with his ashes tomorrow. Mother of God!!! I hope to bury these feeling with him on saturday.
Like I said, I know I will still hurt, I know the feeling will erupt again......I just hope I can leave the worst of it behind, lay it to rest, as I lay him to rest.