Thanks everybody for your wonderful support with helpful words.
I do feel alone most time with this bladder problem. I really feel urologist and there SO-CALLED supportive staff are useless in totally understanding voiding dysfunction.
Last week I had a suprapubic cathter placed. It does mentally give me some peace of mind in wearing a bag. No one can see it under your clothes and you do not have to worry with peeing on the floor. Which I never realized how much stress there is in worrying about the bathroom all the time.

Hugs to all......: