Thanks everyone.
Yes, my pain was up, but I'm getting steroid shots in my spine to help with collapsed disks. It's like a miracle.
Most of the fire in my head is out now. I'm mostly just smoldering. Nothing has triggered my rage again lately.
Are the things I say true???? I'm not sure. I said some hurtful things to my dad which I regret terribly. Once the words are out of the mouth.........
The workplace has become as chaotic as I've seen it in 11 years. I'm going to hang in so not to lose the retirement I have saved up, but it's time to create a new situation for myself. I'll try not to jump ship, but as you say, sometimes it's more important to try to keep your health..
No one will prescribe benzos for me. I'll leave it at that.
I take paxil, synthroid, tegretal (mood stabilizer), seroquel and trazedone. It should knock a horse over. It's amazing how hyper I can still get..........
I'm feeling a bit better.
How are you all doing?