i'm doing alright... i just got back from a cruise to italy and greece... its so what i needed! but when i got back home the weather had started to turn chilly so my pain has gone up... maybe i should go back! lets see.... i'm no longer being seen at stanford, my insurance changed and they pretty much booted me out of the pain program, so i'm seeing a local pm here who has continued my oral ketamine, it helps when i take it but i do get rather... intoxicated when i take it. sometimes i feel like i'm drunk, i space out a lot, get side tracked easily, if i close my eyes sometimes i still feel like they're open but i'm in like another place.. its really weird. and then when my eyes are closed i sometimes feel like i'm floating.. i dunno its weird. i had my stim removed in july... that went very well. i was out at my friend's show like 4 days after, granted it was at a roller rink so it wasn't like i couldn't sit and there weren't like people banging into me. my pm now is trying cold laser treatment on me... its not really doing anything but getting my arm warm... its supposed to have the same effects as blocks... but i had no relief from the blocks so i dunno... i'm back assisting in dance classes. as much as i can. i go to court this thursday for disability. so keep your fingers crossed!!! other then that, i mostly go to my friends' shows and take pictures.... i'm glad to be back in cali that's for sure. the town i live in is in santa cruz county, its like 10 miles from santa cruz... but nobody ever knows where it is so i just say santa cruz!