am beginning to feel nothing is what we want to hear ,but nothing is as bad a as it could be,you are a figter,your strong,as is Baxter.You are in our hearts,sometimes we look so hard to find out why,we go crazy. So far your not ,I will bet you never will be..Oh also my Mama aften mentioned friends are nicer to have then family.. You all decide,I made up my mind along time ago hugs to all you are all wonderful Sue