This is very painful.

We've lost dear pets too. I think one just has to cry it out.

You gave her a tremendous life extension too.

We buried our cats who passed in a special place in our yard.
It was a dry, dusty spot where nothing would grow.

Now with a raccoon, 2 gerbils, & 4 cats.
The area is now covered in ivy, and spring flowers, and
lily of the Valley! (the raccoon we found dead in our yard!--don't know what the reason was, but we buried him there).

Having a place to put my grief is helpful to me. But I'll confess I couldn't bury them...my hubby buried them. I only took one of the cats for the euthanasia...the vet wouldn't let me be there,
as he said she would seize and it would upset me further.


A wise friend told me this: Your grief during a loss is just the other side of your love. If you cannot love, you cannot grieve.
So grief is not the enemy-- it is a measure of your love for whoever you have lost. Somehow that makes me feel better.

You will have another. Once you settle down, I suspect you'll get another.

Here is a pic of our grave area. I made this graphic for a friend who lost a dog recently.

Our oldest cat is now 20 and the vet told me 4 yrs ago she didn't have long to live. Each summer I get nervous taking her upNorth, because I don't know if she will handle it!
But... she is hanging in there. (she is lucky with no organ failure).

The second picture is Sheba in the morning (2007) begging my husband for a breakfast handout...but he only has coffee this time! I'll continue to pray to the cat Gods that she makes it this season!