The best I ever felt, was when I died. It was the most peaceful I have ever felt in my life. I was born w/Turret's and then you add all the all the other injurie's I have from being a firefighter,including PN,COPD, Hyper-coagulation, and on and on. The noise in my head stopped. The pain relieved, the loss of my career ,over. My only concern was my kid's. I just knew they weren't ready for life. When that hit me the Peace left.
It's funny too, have you noticed that several of the post's mention that they felt better in the hospital. I feel that way too. It's like everyone leave's you alone. The pressure of "feeling better" goes away. No responsibilities, no trying to be unselfish in love. Just you and your meds. Just something to think about. Sometime's I feel like I could just move to Wyoming or something like that and just chill. BUt, I really do like people.