dear Billye. I am so sorry.
I am tearful as I write, as I, too, have an aunt I am very close to. She lives on the other side of the map! Yet, we are so very close in heart, soul and in spirit. I get very upset when I am increasingly ill and she needs surgery ...and I cannot make it across the states to be with her. I'd also be so heart-broken if I could not make it in the event of her passing.
To some degree, I can understand your deep pain and sorrow.
I am sure you and your aunt will always be close in spirit.
You often show tremendous concern and compassion for others. I am sure these traits are very comforting to your cousin, as well as to others, just as they are here to so many.
I, again, am so deeply sorry for your pain.
I am glad you were able to share about this and hope it is, somehow, helpful for others to walk along beside you during this very sad time.
I hope you do feel free to continue to share on this, if you feel you wish to do so?
With all that has gone on, I am also very concerned about your health status.
I know you know best as to how to attend to your own needs.
So glad you have pups to maybe help you to smile, in between the tears right now?
(Glad your pup has adjusted well. Mine is howling in her sleep... like a wolf...as I type.)
Please be very kind to yourself during this most difficult time.
With Deepest Sympathies~