(((BJ))) Thank you for sharing that, I do know how hard it was. Your mothers reaction to Marks killing himself reminds me of my reaction when our son killed himself and my neighbors recent reaction to her son killing himself. My son wouldn't do that! And of course when the reality finally sinks in ....WHY???

We can't know for sure..at least not in this life. Some people have demons they can't live with and some people just tire of trying. I think our Michael killed himself impulsively, without any forethought, without any consideration of what it would do to our family...I think he just said "scew it" and reached for that gun.

I have no doubt that had they known what that act would do to their loved ones they'd still be with us. They made bad choices for reasons only they know for sure.

I like to think of Mark, upthere swinging that bat.

Talking about it BJ, is a good thing. Thank you.