(((((BJ)))))...

I can hear the burden you have carried in the knowledge of the note...your choice to attempt to protect and lessen the pain of your parents while enduring your own pain...

I, too lost a dear brother to suicide. Then, 3 years to the day later, my husband. Losing loved ones this way adds a unique weight to the loss.

I just want to offer the chance to lay the burden down that you carry. I believe that is what your dreams are trying to tell you.

Share all the pain and guilt and sorrow and anger and remembrance to the ones that you feel safe.

We are safe here. We understand. Lay the burden down, or let us help you carry it.

When you are ready...