Just praying for some relief for you from all that pain you have held onto for so long. I know your brother and parents would be so grately saddened to see you this way and I can't imagine how Hooper would cope without you. He would be just as grief struck. I am glad to see you are posting and able to talk about this and I hope this puts you on the road of mending. Hopefully you are taking care of your "owies" too. We are all thinking about you and sending our love. God bless.