Maybe he is not the grouchy one. Maybe I am.
I almost couldn't stand my own self today.

A few minutes ago I figured out why I have been annoyed and out of sorts the past couple days -- my extended family on my mother's side was making arrangements and then attending funeral services for a dear husband of my aunt. Lots of people traveling. My aunt had to travel by car a long distance to get back to her home town and her siblings and some of her children.

My sis and I did not travel, but we have been on the phone with a bunch of aunts and have been hearing about the logistics of getting everybody together. (My sis and I are involved because my parents were in the middle of a vacation. We had to track them down to get them the word.) And the aunts, who all seem to have a touch of OCD with control issues, were concerned about my mother's whereabouts.


Some of the family BS came out although everyone does seem to be on their best behavior.


Also, I realize again that I am still annoyed at my mother -- for being who she is.

Gosh. I need to get a grip.
Tomorrow is the funeral mass of my uncle.
Maybe I will feel more settled down after that.

And I need to find a way to get over my issues with my mother.
I'd like to live some of my own life.
I don't have to be annoyed at my mother all the time.



M.