You've been through alot. I'm so sorry the ketamine didn't work.

Has your doctor ever tried changing your meds a bit. When I was at the end of my rope with my pain, we tried adding the clonidine patch. Well I called it my miracle! Throwing the sympathetic nervous system a new med switched things around a bit and it really help me for a long time. There is meds that will calm your system down....it's finding the right mix for your system.

Sweetie, it seems like the monster is just trying his best to get the best of you. Don't let it. Seek other opinions on treatments if you have to. But continue to fight. I know it's depressing. This is the hardest fight of your life. But you can do this. Be agressive with your doctor. Don't be afraid of him. You are in charge of your body and your health.

We are here for you. Try to keep smiling!

Dana