(((Anne))) I'm sorry you have so much on your plate right now...life doesn't seem fair at times.
Have you read Rabbi Kushners book, When Bad Things Happen to Good People?

Or Frederick Buechners book, The Longing for Home...He wrote "The world can be kind, and it can be cruel. It can be beautiful, and it can be appalling. It can give us good reason to hope and good reason to give up all hope. It can strengthen our faith in a loving God, and it can decimate our faith. In our lives in the world, the temptation is always to go where the world takes us, to drift with whatever current happens to be running the strongest."

And I conclude that life isn't fair. Good people suffer and bad people prosper. It rains on the just and the unjust.

But I believe in hope..."that feathered thing" that sits in our soul and never stops singing.

And I give thanks for new friends like you who remind me to "keep on, keeping on" by her words of support and friendship.

Look up Anne, there are many arms reaching down for you.