Guys, furhter to my introduction emial I would like to share my experience hopefully it might help some one out there or it could help me if some has had the same experience

I got up one morning with a strange feeling that something was not right - I almost felt like I was awake but still living in a dreamworld - if you know what i mean -

That morning my husband got me up as I had overslept - now my husband never gets me up in the morning I usually get up by 6.45am naturally - so I thought to myself maybe Im feeling drugged because my husband got me up and I got up with a fright.

I went to work as normal but I was still in a daze the whole day. That evening we went out for supper and during supper I become very restless and agitated - i could not sit on the chair and I felt nauseous. As soon as we got home I went to bed.

The next morning I could not sit up in bed - The moment I lifted my head I started vomitting the entire room was spinning, I could not even stand on my own - My husband then took me to our family doctor. During the whole trip I was sick in the car, every small bump on the road felt like hell. I kept falling towards the left. I felt like dying.

My family doctor diagnosed me with inner ear infection and gave me an injection, she described my condition as sea sickness. She told me to call her if I dont get better by the next day.

To cut a long story short I started getting worst and I was admitted into hospital as having an inner ear infection the next day.

The ENT specialist that saw me in hospital said that I had a viral infection in my ear and gave me some hectic medication.

After being in hospital to 2 days I started feeling better by the fourth day I was discharged. But I still had a balance problem my ENT specialist suggested that I should get a MRI scan on my left ear just to make sure.

THATS WHEN THE #### HIT THE FAN - They discovered a white spot on my brain the ENT did not know what it was but he booked me to see a Neurosurgeon the next morning.

Dr Frank Snyckers who is the best surgeon in our country saw me and he told be that I had CA on my brainstem. The MRI scan showed 2 rings which meant that I have bleed twice previously. His advise was that it be removed as the CA had bleed and the changes of it bleeding again was greater. Also he said that Im young and if I bled again I could have a stroke etc. In disbelieve I went and saw another surgeon for a second appinion hoping against all odds that Dr Snyckers had made a mistake and this guy would tell me that its nothing and it will go away and I would wake up from this nightmare. He gave me the same diagnosis as Snyckers.

As far as I was concerned this was a death sentence, In my mind I was no longer invincible. I was going to die and my chirldren would loose their mother.

I then went back to see Snyckers and he explained to me what the procedure with regard to the op would be. So we decided that i would have the op in March as I had just started a new job and I did not want to take sick leave just yet. Snyckers agreed that I could have the op in March if I did no bleed before then.

He also advised me to grow my hair - as it will help with the hiding of the scars.

When I returned to work 3 weeks later I asked to be reallocated from my stressful position and moved within the company to a less stressful position. I also tendered my resignation as the Chairperson of our Body Corporation.

Now all I do is stress about the operation. My husband who is very strong mentally cannot understand why Im stressing.

Im scared of whats going to happen - will I die on that operating table.

How is the qualtity of my life going to be after the operation. WIll i still be able to walk, drive,work play sport etc.(live normally)

Just so you know Im a very active person- correction im hyper active.

Amina