My husband went through this type of doctor patient relationship for many years. It wasn't until five years ago when we met Jim's current spinal cord doctor that Jim finally knew what being somewhat pain free felt like. His doctor has a strong belief that anything that helps one of his patients live a better quality of life is not addicting. He believes there is no such thing as an addiction if your taking the medicine to help ease pain and suffering.

My husband currently takes methadone at 20mgs twice a day and his pain level now stays at a 4-5. He also smokes mj at each pill time to help ease that pain. He doesn't smoke it any other time unless there are days like you mentioned. By taking methadone and mj he has been able to cut back on his gabapentin, tizantidine, and valium. I personally see that as a good thing and so does his doctor and neuro.

I do think you deserve something to ease your pain. No one should be suffering in pain with all the meds out there. My husband does not get "high" on methadone or mj because it goes straight to the source pain.

I wish you well and hope you find another doctor who can help ease your pain. Keep looking, they are out there.

Disclaimer: I am not in any way suggesting anyone should do what my husband is doing. Each person is different.