Welcome Crwstar
we are glad you are here
I am sorry about how "things" went for you. I dont think the guilt lessens or goes away one just learns how to accept it..live with it, cope and keep moving into the next day... Time dose seem to make things more bareable. So dose good friends, talking, getting support and caring understanding people to share with.
I hope you will come "wonder" with us its a great way to get to know others .
glad you found your way to N.T. and really happy you shared with us,
There are lots of us to lean on ask questions to and just be silly with. We try to help and support each other as much as possible, So far I have found this forum the best place to be understood and supported .Its safe ,friendly and I call it my 2ed home . Hope that soon you will too.
PEACE
BMW