Hi Mike,
This is rather hard for me to post, as my Dad recently took his life. I know you have heard all the trite replies, but I feel the need to add one more,
suicide is A permanent solution for a temporary problem
I know there are people who must just love you to peaces! Give them the chance, my Dad didn't give me.... a chance to be there for you. I would have given ANYTHING to have known my Dad had these thoughts, and now..... it is too late.
The survivors of suicide forum that snoopy gave you the link too, is a wonderful group of people who would love to support you. Thinking of you and wishing you better tomorrows, Nikki