WE all TRY to make sense of these things but addiction is Illogical. Like Love, the heart wants what it wants and you can't argue with yourself NOT to Love someone. Just slap the label "ADDICTION" on it. It takes conviction to get over an addiction AND determination to stop it. The addiction is always there whether you stop or not. Even when a person stops drinking. That little person inside of you just sits there waiting for you to get him going again. The bottle is patient too, it is waiting for you too. That is why we can NOT even have a sip or even a drop of alcohol, it's starts the whole thing rolling again. I don't even want to SMELL it. That gets the wheels in my brain cranking again. Just like everyone Alcoholic. I think we are just born this way.