Mike,
I am so glad and relieved to hear you say that

It takes a very strong person to make the move you are doing .... best of luck, stay strong, I admire you.
I just have one other thing to say, I am sorry that your loved ones were disapointed with you. Speaking about suicide from both sides.... I know how hard that must have been for you to speak about ...... I also wish with all that I am, that my Dad was able to tell me. If anything, I would commend you and your strength!!
The invite to SOS is still open, we have a variety of folks over there... all of them wonderful, stop by if these thoughts creep back in, or you just want to chat with people who understand. Best of luck Mike! Nikki