(((Nickey)))

This all must hurt you to the very core of your being, infact it shakes the core of your being and the core of your belief system.

Please understand this "shaking of the core" is a "normal" and a "healthy" response to all you are having to deal with.

These words that come to you: "I am done"... I'd encourage you to explore them a little further. It may not be that you are "done," period. You might find there is more to the meaning of: "I am done?" There may be many things you are "done" with? Yet, there may also be things you are not so sure you are "done" with?

And then again, it may feel like you "are done" with everything?

Don't deny these feelings, but do remember they are feelings and, although we often think /fear feelings will never change, somehow feelings do change ... in time.

I cannot imagine all of what you must be going through.

Yet, I would like to tell you that I do think you made a great effort and a great decision to post her today!

I'd encourage you to continue to post here just as often as you wish to express anything at all..whether daily, hourly..whatever suits your needs!

There is a huge community here of very compassionate people, as you know!

Let us try to help to support you through your journey, it would be an honor to walk beside you during this time.

(I personally, will be away for surgery shortly; however, I will return as soon as possible. You and yours will be in my mind, in my heart and in my prayers while I am away. I just know many others here will take great care in trying to help you!)

Please continue to take excellent care!

Be very, very kind and understanding to yourself, please. You deserve this self-compassion!

I will be lurking, even if unable to type!

We are all here to help! There is great power in "community!"