(((Nikki)))

My hat goes off to your doctor. He obviously cares about you too because he had the strength to speak the truth to you in a heartfelt and humane way. Many professionals don't have that much courage. It would have been nice to fill you with hope, but it would only drop you harder when you discovered the truth. At least now you know what you are dealing with - as if you didn't know before. Even when we know all about reality, it tends to keep slapping us in the face.

Maybe this is why your father decided you needed to have a little more fire in your blood. When the time comes when the professionals have to turn their backs on you, you'll be able to draw from the strength your father gave you.

It's a VERY hard and rocky road you are forced to walk. I'm glad you can hold onto the hands of your friends along the way. Feel free to throw some pebbles at us whenever you get the urge.