I just really wanted to come back and get some thoughts out and I hope nobody minds.

I wanted to come here to assure those that thought that I was angry or mad that I am NOT, I really really am not...LOL really really...

I was bothered a little bit by the situation itself, but I wasn't bothered by anybody.

I think that for me, I really try to balance it out as much as possible. So when I joke around, I usually would end up posting else where to let people know that I was thinking of them and that this IS an SOS forum and that we joke in trying to ease our pains and such.

I think those posts of mine are actually often lost vs. the ones where I am cutting up and I don't want anyone to think that I didn't care. And I try to reach out to as many as possible within my own means.

speaking of "judgement with love"

what Alffe did was actually a perfect example of that. She was concerned for those that come here even to just lurk and was afraid that they would get "lost" in the fun.

So, she had to make a judgement, with love....to remind those of us, especially moi...LOL that can get a little bit wild sometimes...and she did it with "LOVE" underneath it all...

But don't be fooled...this woman can joke with the best of them....I've seen it...

her laughter is infectious in person...and her soft deep blue eyes has love shining right behind them when she pulled my ears...

and those same laughter that I have met in person include doody and duckys. I can still remember all of us laughing in our dining room when I played Jimmy Buffet's "why don't we get drunk and "brew" LOLOLOL

she had to make a judgement call and say, OK, calm down a bit...joke, but don't forget others...

to be honest, I don't think those of us joking forget others...but it is hard to tell in a forum situation and I think she just wanted to point that out...

that was a judgement, with love...

and if I may mention this, Alffe's gotten mad with me many times...LOLOLOL... but through it all, my love for
her has never yielded...as I am sure hers for me as well (at least, I hope so?? LOL) and that is what true friendship is about...I know she cares and she knows I care and sometimes, she'll get mad at me....then, I run away then she yanks my ear right back...LOLOLOL

I don't think what was said was meant to shut anyone up to have fun. I just think that it was called to say "hey, don't forget the others while you are having fun..."

I'll admit, I am very sensitive like the rest of you, and there was a time when this probably would've upsetted me greatly...but that was my former insecure self talking...

but I've grown up...I am a different person now even than I was 6 months ago...

so, I am hoping to keep on growing, there might be two steps backwards here and there, but I am hoping that I'll keep on moving forward...

July seems to be a rough month for a lot of folks and I think with the pain that a lot of us are going through, it has made some of us joked while the others retrieved...but that's what being different means....


as for the semi-nekkid photo of the men. I apologize for posting them here. The photo itself didn't bother me
and like I've said, everyone will find something offensive at some point.

I can say the word, "Dern", and it would upset people. I KNOW! Cause I belonged to a church that won't let me
say "Hello" cause it has "hell" in it, I can't say "Hi" cause it could mean getting hi.

When they answered the phone, they say, "right on" *faint...

but they were wonderful nice folks, just got to the point of censorship...but that's another story in a place long long ago...

whenever I hear people tell Asian Jokes. I always think that it is funny...I actually tell them better.

There are a lot of things to be offended about. I just don't let it get to me.

however, with that said, I can totally understand that certain things might affect certain people and that I should've used
a better "judgement" call. I do debate about that a lot...

I do NOT want to see schizm in this here them forum. I do NOT want to see people get hurt...

don't take what's happened too personally, dear folks...it's all good and we'll keep on moving on...

and life is a graph, there are ups and there will be downs, but it'll go back up again...
nobody's said, "I HATE YOU" or "GO AWAY"

everybody, and I mean, EVERYBODY that is here is family...now, go hug eachother, post, have a little fun, support

and let me lurk away for awhile....

I come back to post this to tell you all that I care and I am just taking a break...LOL

You don't get rid of me THAT easily...