I am sorry you are going through so much!

I fully understand what you are saying about feeling safer at your mother's...even if at her home while all alone!

I am sorry it seems your mother needs a bit more space? (Is that an accurate understanding?)

I do live with my husband and my dog. Yet, if I did not have them and was alone, I could see wanting to live with others.

Is there any chance of you not living alone? Maybe not living with your mother, but living with other friends/acqaintances?

Some areas actually have programs to "pair up" housemates, based upon each person's individual's needs. Do you now if there is a program like that around?

It has been a long time since I have lived near my brothers and sisters. I often wish we all lived in the same neighborhood again! (This may sound sappy, but it is true! It would be easier to spend time together... just whenever the timing was good for each individuals! I'd also definitely want my mother in the same neighborhood with all of us! There's nothing wrong with wanting a healthy relationship with your mother... or with other family members.)

How are things going with your chronic pain group?
Have you been able to make any connections there?

Are you able to pursue any form of a group that identifies with your own spiritual preferences? People often find rewarding relationships within these settings, as well!

I am glad you have brought this topic up!

It is an important one and it is very pertinent with any chronic illness!

Please continue to take care and let us know how this is going for you?