:sorry Hey guys,
Sorry it took me so long to get back with u.I have had a lot going on.I graduated from college in May and have been trying to find a job and have had no luck.I keep trying though.I had an uncle pass away with lyphoma when he didn't know he had it until it was 2 late.He live about 2 weeks after he found out.My dad just went through a quad bypass 3 weeks ago.My rsd is getting worse.I can turn my scs up and only get minimal relief.I am on 4 different meds.I am having so much pain.The more I turn the scs up the more spasms I get in the shoulder and arm.I started with it in my left wrist and it traveled up my arm into my shoulder and neck,gone over to my right hand up my arm 2 my shoulder and don't know 4 sure if it is in my feet or not. Some days it hurts worse than others to walk and the swelling in my feet are something else. Somedays the swelling is in 1 foot and sometimes in both feet. I have not talk to my doc about that because I am afraid to because he told me that when i seen him for my right side he said that it usually doesn't follow a path like that. So I don't know. The only thing i know is that I hurt. Is it possible to spread like this? My thoughts are that it is rsd and that it can take any path it wants to just because it can. I am probably way off in my thinking but that is the way i feel. Is it possible that my feet are starting to get it? I hope not because I am very scared.I don't need it in my feet right now. I have way 2 much to do.How do I deal with all this?I am also suppose to see a different psychiatrist becuz the other one did nothing 4 me.I don't see the new one until August 28 and I feel like I am going stir crazy. There are days when I just sit and cry because i am so afraid that my world is caving in on me.I just don't know how to deal with the everyday pressures.I am trying but it is so hard.How do u all do it?I have so much going on that I feel like my world is spinning out of control. Please help if you can. I need so much help and can't get it. The only good thing that is going on is that my sister finally decided to read about the rsd that I have so she knows a little more about what I am going through. I am so happy that part of my family is finally interested enuff to read and care about me.Still I need help so if anyone has anything to say please do.I would greatly appreciate it. Thank u so much.

Sincerely,
screwballpookie