Doody, do not ever feel silly! You replied with your heart, and that is what I love about you!!

That was also my first responce, well minus a few swears

It hurts right now... I know you all know this. But I want to try not to hide from it. I want to face it head on. If I stumble...thats ok... I will try again.
But as many things as I question, there are also some truths I do know.
Among them, is my dad held everything inside... from his childhood.. to the wars....... everything. I believe it slowly ate him up. In his honor, I wont do the same.

I just love this group, you have all helped me more than words can express Nikki