It's been awhile checking in for me. I've just been reading lately. So much is going on for all of you.

I'm so happy Vonn got her lake front place (that's the one I was rooting for!).

Kay - I'm so glad they caught the bad guys in Belize, but so sorry you had to deal with that.

Renee - I'm so sorry about the pain and the crappy health care choices you have now. Is it possible for you to get some steroids to get you through? I don't like taking the roids, but they are cheap, easily available and have always helped me a great deal. Even if you can't get an infusion, you could always do the oral in high dose or even get the liquid solumedrol and do a smoothie like some people do.

OK that was all my brain could retain of the pages I just read. Those were the things that stuck out in my mind. Everyone else seemed to be doing OK from what I could remember.

Speaking of remembering things, that isn't going so well for me. I'm actually getting a little bid scared about how bad my cognitive function has become. I just cannot keep track of anything and I don't have time to figure out how to revamp things to make it easier.

You know the old saying that goes something like "if everything is coming at you, you are in the wrong lane"? Well, that is my life right now and I'm getting kind of bitter. I sit here and try to figure out what I am doing wrong because things just keep going bad. I figured that I have ticked off the universe in some way or another.

I am having serious financial issues right now that stem from a couple of years worth of bad life events. Every time I think I am starting to make headway toward digging myself out, something else happens.

Yesterday, my husband's car died. It is repairable, but the cost is something mind blowing to me. It's his transmission and the estimate is somewhere between $1,600 and $2,600.

This stupid car isn't even that old - it's a 2002 and only has ~ 90,000 miles on it. I have had cars with 150,000 miles on them without having to have a transmission rebuilt. Maybe I have just been lucky up until now, maybe this is normal for this age / mileage, but I'm kind of really ticked off at Chevrolet right now, though.

The part that really sucks is that the car isn't even paid off yet. We bought it off of my brother when he was stationed in Korea and then Japan, so we have only owned it for a couple of years. I don't see any option except to bite the bullet and get it fixed, but that just makes me want to cry more than normal.

I love having my Grandma living with us, but I won't lie and say that it is all easy. There are days when I feel like I'm walking on egg shells and there is a lot of stress with trying to get everyone adjusted to this. I'm having some behavior issues with my boys between lack of routine due to summer and adjusting to sharing a room again and just plain old jealousy of my attention being so divided.

This would be hard for someone who is healthy and not dealing with mind blowing fatigue and spasticity. I just wanted to run away the other day. I'm sad, tired, stressed out, scared about the future, and just generally feel like crud.