hi there,
Showering is a big thing for me.
I used to shower 2 times a week.
Since I have been going to the gym I have a routine:
rollout of bed, wake up while driving 10 minutes to the gym
do some physical activity that makes me sweat....
take a shower then get dressed in my scrubs that I had rolled in a ball in my gym bag.
It is a routine that I like now.

My point is I created a new routine.
But you know that I like routines.....
couple months ago I took the on-line real age test.
I started making some small changes that really were that big of a change. But they are good for me.
Flossing my teeth, I never did this before,
taking extra vit c and calcium and magnesium.
trying to get extra water in ...again these things aren't that big of a deal.
Showering:
One of the reasons that I did not like taking a shower at home is that I would sort of dissassociate while in the shower. My head would swim with chaos of thoughts and ideas....It was like I was add or something...I could not focus...I would have to try to go thru the steps and tell me the things that I need to do...like I would leave out a step...I would think too much in the shower...does that make sense.
It was almost like I was avoiding the shower because I was thinking too much in it....I did not want to think that much.
At the gym...I learned how to take a short simple shower and it not be a big deal..... their hot water and their towels, shampoo and conditioner are theres as well.
So it makes it really easy to use their facilities and I don't have to wash towels!

anyway...
I don't mean to ramble like this....
What I wanted to say is that maybe you are avoiding the shower for some reason.
Are you feeling depressed?......I think that not wanting to take care of hygiene issues is very common when you are depressed....
What does hubby say?
What is your gut feeling about this?
(((HUGS)))
bizi