OK, I am not a doctor but *some* depressions will only get better with Bipolar meds, such as Lithium. Just a suggestion for your doctor, ok? I had to go on Lithium to get better from depression, and some forms of depression are really Bipolar. I'm not at all suggesting you have this, just throwing out some new ideas. Also, if you're a misfit, then everyone is, including me. Going to buy food is a real "party." I finally get it in the cart and go to the checkout. THEN, it takes me forever to get it out of the cart! UGH! Very few people care. They get so mad at me, throw me looks, and then start asking me hurry up! DUH! If I COULD, I WOULD! The hands refuse to do it. Maybe I should tell them to talk to the hands? I would, but by then I'm so angry back at them, that I just give them the evil eye. Oh yeah! Then trying to get the bags in the house? HA! It takes forever and I just LOVE the way the neighbors stare at me like I'm a lazy loser. UGH! Anyway, I DO understand how you feel.