I'm so sorry you're going th rough some hard times Brokenfriend. Can you ask your Nure Practitioner for a referal for some more in depth therapy? I know it's frustrating waiting on SSDI, but once it happens it will change your life, for the better I hope. Hang in there, like Twinkletoes said, try to get some sleep, things always look better in the morning.

I'm keeping you in my prayers Brokenfriend. Be good to yourself.