I want to thank everyone of you for the kind words you used. You guys don't know what it means to me to hear suck kind words. You don't even know me and you guys still support me. I am so thankful for all of you. You are the best. I am really trying to get out of this slump but it is very hard. I do have a new psychiatrist appointment August 28 and thay can't get me in sooner. I tried. My daughter starts couseling this Wednesday.The first psychiatrist I had couldn't do anything for me so he says. I did not care for him anyway.So now I am going to a new psychiatrist but not until August 28. I am on 4 meds which are Lyrica, cymbalta, clonazepam and Nebumatone. It just seems like none of them are working and I also have an scs which has slowed in working for the pain. YOU all mean the world to me. I want to thank you all for not giving up on me. I am doing a little better today but still am dealing with alot and trying to get over it. How do you guys deal with it? I do believe in God. He is my savior, but sometimes I wonder why he lets me suffer so bad and so much at one time. I know he has his reasons,but what are they? I guess nobody knows but I wish I could figure it out. I do think about my daughter before I do anything because I do love her very much. If I ever lost her I don't know what I would do. She is my only child and I think I would go stir craving mad if i lost her. She is my baby no matter how old she gets and I would do anything for her. I would give my life for her if that ever had to happen. I just hate the fighting and her attitude towards me. Can't she see how much I love her?That I would do anything for her? I told her yesterday that no matter how mad she gets at me and no matter how much she treats me like crap I am always going to love her. She just doesn't seem to get it. What can i do to get her to understand that everything I do is out of love for her. This disease or monster will never shut my love off for her. I just want to say thanks again. YOu don't know what it means to me to hear those kind beautiful words. It means the world to me because I don't seem to hear anything like that around here. You all take care of youselves and I will be talking to you soon.

Sincerely,
Tracy