In spite of it all the teasings and looks that I get all the time...I've decided that I can really let it roll off of me...

and I started something last summer...whenever I go to the supermakets, I always ask if the cashier would like a drink. The problem was, I am a dude and most of the times, I think they think I am hitting on them.

I am believer in karma and somewhat of a buttfly effect. If I stink face someone, that someone will stink face someone else and it'll come back to me eventually...

I always see cashiers that are busy with long lines and by the time I get to them, they are pretty worn out...I try to be really nice to them and talk to them. Most of the times, it works...but then asking them if I can buy them a drink innocently without them taking it the wrong way was hard.

I solved that problem today...

I bought a drink but asked the cashier to ring it up separately, I know, she gave me the "sheesh, more work" look. But that was OK...

I then said to her: "this is for you, and I am NOT hitting on you. I just wanted to thank you." And I also leave her the receipt so she can exchange it for a drink she wants.

And I walked away...

I still hope she doesn't think I was hitting on her...hmmmm....anyways, no matter. I will try to do that as much as I can from now on. If I can afford (Not really) to pay $4.00/gallon. I can afford $1.25 to hopefully make someone smiles at the person behind me...and hopefully, that smile will come 'round my way again some day...

anyways...after a couple of days of being mean and angry...I am done with that...I need to go back to zen...and believe that the human race have a chance. But I can only believe in that if I myself follow suit...