heres number two.

since my accident i've felt more alone then i've ever felt in my life and like i couldnt communicate to anyone therefore feeling trapped. ive tried to tell my mom to help me find a doctor (because my whole life shes taken care of that type of thing) and she keeps telling me to do it myself. the one thing i could REALLy use help for and she wont help me. i talked to my aupportive aunt and she gave me the number to her psychatrist and i called him and he returned my call but i missed it so i called again and left a message and he should get back to me monday.

i also called the mental heath office for my regular doctors office (my PCP gave me the number) and they said the psychologist couldnt see me till September....after i got off the phone with them i almost had an attack because i needed help NOW and not months from now. I got in contact with the counceling office at my furture college and made an appointment but cancelled the first appointment i made because i woke up anxious and tweaking out and i didnt feel comfortable driving in that condition. im going to call them back and make an appointment but i dunno what i should do...the counceling office at school said ic ant have a regular psychologist/psychatrist and use their services but what if i dont like the psychatrist? what if the person at my PCPs referral works for me? what if I like the person at my college?

another thing that makes me nervous/anxious is the whole heath insurance thing situation. i know nothing about co-pays or my coverage other than im still covered under my dads insurance cuz im a full time student, and my PCP copay is 5 dollars. my card said mental heath co pay is $10 but i have no idea whos covered or what. it makes my head spin.

im worried about my mental and physical heath. im overweight for my age/size and im not trying to be like Oh im so fat and im not, my doctor is worried about my weight. im an extremely picky eater and i cant find 'healthy' foods i like. i know when i get my student ID (at orientation agu 20th which im waiting anxiously for, i feel like time is going by SO slowly) i get free range of the gym there and i cant wait. ive never ever felt motivated to work out but i REALLy want to now. but i know thats not it i need to eat right too. i need to find help with that.

on the school subject im looking for a laptop because i have issues with auditory learning and in college its mostly lectures. I cant write by hand what i hear as fast as its being said, so im getting worried and anxious over starting school without a laptop to type out what i hear and missing important information cuz i cant hand write fast enough.

any suggestions on healthy food and laptops would be great.


I hope people from the other thread jumpt onto this one because this is the one ill be updating.