Wow, it sounds like you've been having a rough time of it this summer. I am sure losing your boyfriend was hard, but you need to look after yourself right now. It sounds like you're doing the right things in seeking help. Panic attacks are simply awful, so are accidents, and the resulting trauma. My heart goes out to you Meghan. (((((((hugs)))))))

I am sure talking about it will help, talking makes me feel better for a little while.