Oh dear God I don't know how much longer I can do this. He told me I was stupid this morning. Yesterday he cursed at me. This is on the way to school. His stomach is worse. I spent two days on the phone talking to the doctor's offices. This morning after dropping him off the GI's nurse specialist calls me and tells me that my insurance will not pay for the Prevacid. Not until he tries their choices first. I begin to cry, his primary is out until Monday, GI until next Thursday. I tell her, I am making him go to school like this. He is miserable. She says if it is that bad then take him to ER.

So I get things ready for a long sit in ER. Little one is prepared. We pick him up and I don't tell him until he realizes we have passed the turning point. He does not want to go and sit and wait. I tell him we have to, he needs to. He becomes angry and I tell him I am tired of him telling me I am not doing enough to help him. If he wants to be treated like an adult then he needs to act like an adult. He tries to get out of the car at a stop light but it suddenly turns green so I never come to a complete stop. How many more until the hospital? One is too many. Fine he says, I won't say anything next time. I just won't go to school. So I turn around and take him back to where he is staying. I slam on the brakes in front and make him get out in the road. I think he flipped me the bird but I couldn't see his hand in the rear window, I am pretty sure he wasn't waving goodbye.

I come home and his teacher has left a message on my machine saying my son's grade went from a D to an E. He feels so awful that he can't concentrate and has been going down to the office and laying down.

On the way home I begin going over in my mind about any of the newer meds and if they could have affected his stomach and what he was on when the GI did his UGI. Suddenly I decide to check and see when he started the Celebrex. After the UGI, 2 weeks after, what is it, oh good God it is an NSAID. AMMIT!!! I knew that!!! What was his pediatrician thinking? You give a kid with stomach lesions an NSAID? One that powerful!!?? Moron!! So when I take my son's laundry back to him I will have to tell him to stop taking the Celebrex, he obviously has the same reaction as I do. I don't know what we will do about his back pain. Maybe after his bowels clear his back will get better.

I sit here crying because I feel so helpless. It is like dealing with Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. He and his girlfriend came over yesterday and hung out and watched movies, played on the computer and with his little brother. They even stayed for dinner which is unusual. When I pick him up in the morning he is a totally different person. Tired, grouchy, mean, angry, sick.

I just feel so drained. I don't have anything left for the rest of the day.