Sorry to hear you are so miserable...your feelings sound well deserved.
Don't know what to tell you, as nothing really works for me, either. I'm not "as bad" as I was a year ago, but still no healthy person would want to trade with me, even for a day. For me, no matter how wonderful the treatment, or how MUCH of the "wonderful" treatment I'm on, I will still flare up during hormonal shifts (ovulation and menses.) There's no getting around that and I must say, I'm a bit curious as to how life will be after menopause (which is still a bit away for me...)
Hope things get better for you very soon!
Missy