Whew! I just read through many, many pages and now I am blurry and tired and confused, but happy to catch up with y'all. That'll teach me to disappear.

My update:

Transmission in car is fixed to the tune of $1,800 with a more reputable shop than the one that was quoting the big range. We got a warranty, too. I'm still mourning the loss of the $$ I couldn't afford to spend.

Laptop died and I have semi-resurrected it. Still working on trying to get it truly functional - makes it hard to keep up on here when I am not using a computer at home.

I took 2 days of vacation last week to try to get caught up on stuff at home and failed miserably. I have found that the fatigue is really that bad right now. Why can't SSDI just provide services for those of us who want to keep working like maid service? I'm totally serious here. If I had some help around the house, it would really help me keep working. It would seriously save them money to just help with services like that.

When I hit points like this is when I seriously think about SSDI. My neuro tried to convince me to file about 3 years ago telling me that I was using all of my energy at work and I really keep hearing his words when I hit this stupid wall.

Grandma is doing a lot better. She has really adjusted well. I'm not sure I have and I am really scared about the future, but I am trying to take one day at a time.

We are still in financial doom, but I have some hopes for pulling out of it. It's just so hard when you can't think clearly and keep forgetting important things.

DS8 just got back from Cub Scout summer camp. The boy who was terrified to go and who is too afraid to eat dinner on the patio if he sees a bug just spent 5 days sleeping in a tent and didn't want to come home because he had too much fun! Amazing!

Well, I am really trying to get myself out of my funk, so I am going to try to participate more here. I love reading all about your lives and I keep you all in my prayers even if I don't post much. All of you take care.