I, and many others, are very very glad that YOUR suicide didn't work...and that you are here trusting us enough to talk about it...

I think most of us if not all of us can understand the low self-esteem and self-worth...

I am battling that right now cause just yesterday, I finally broke down and cried hard in da wife's arms and wondering why I am feeling this way when I am the happiest I've ever been...

I haven't been able to really cry except to shed a little bit of tears here and there...and that hard, heart wrenching cry was really good for me...

I have finally taken her advice and am going to see a Psychiatrist soon....

I have not been able to post cause of the way my heart has been closing...

but I felt the need to come here and tell you that you are important...you may NOT feel so, but you are...
and that I will be sitting here thinking of you and holding you in my thoughts...

and these other fine folks will help hold you...whenever you need....

not sure if you are seeing anybody professional or if that you don't believe that they would help or maybe you have felt burnt by any pdocs...

but, please don't give up and keep on trying...please KEEP, on trying...