I often feel the same way. I am like poison to docs I feel. What I did is sent my records to major places to see if they felt they could help me. Maybe if I were you is I would send my records and set an apt but try to find someone in your area too. The waiting lists can be unreal for these places. I have been to many of the same docs trying to find an answer and relief. It is frustrating but it just takes a different approach or thought to help but on the same note to confuse things too.Hang in there.