No it's not weird at all. I was just saying to my mom that as a child we look up to our elders and almost worship them. Only after we grow up we realize they are just like we are with ups and downs of life. *sigh*

It's hard on you and I do remember when you told us about your MIL. I still wish hubby could come in and help you some so your not sharing this burden alone. DM gave you great advice about hospice and she's right, this is what they do towards the end of someone's life. I watch my bff be given enormous amounts of morphine before she left us. I was the last person she talked to. It truly is for their comfort. It's not your fault at all.