Nikki....your words moved me....

I worked in an Alzheimer's unit for 10 years and watched many families go through your struggle...a grief that is renewed with each visit and with each decline. BUT...how the struggle makes the joy of those words...I love you...and the smile...so much more precious! I am so glad that you hae been given this gift and that you are wise to recognize the gift for what it is.

Regarding your dream....I am glad that you "felt" your dad's visit and know that he is OK. I am proud of your decision to forgive and to try to understand his choice, even though it would not have been yours for him.
This also...a gift.