I was on alprazolam (xanax) but I just got a new script for valium (i dont have it yet) so currently im not taking anything.

Example: Yesterday, I was driving to Sterling to hang out with Mike. The weather was kinda crappy (rainy/cloudy) and I was talking to God (out loud while driving) and I was SO SO happy, and as I was driving the sky started to clear up and it was sunny and beautiful and I was so thankful to be alive, and I was happy to see Mike and just hang out.

This morning: I woke up feeling physically and mentally a wreck. I felt like if I left my room, I'd just be more upset, so I locked my door and stayed in bed for hours. I usually go to my friend Lizzy's house in the afternoon till late at night, and I didn't go tonight because I didn't wanna leave my house.

and it's been like this all day, just upset and depressed and thinking about everything upsetting in my life.


Its been like this for weeks.