I have had several traumatic events happen to me and around me as a child. Last night something happened that set me of on a fear round-about. Now I can't settle inside and I feel as If I am going fast inside, my head is to fast, I'm trying to make sure I have every avenue covered so I can make my escape.

I look up around me and see today, but I dont' see it, its all about the fear going on inside of me, the noise its all to fast and noisy. I tried writing to get some of the fast out of me but its not working.

I feel as if I'm about to leave the last bit of reality I have hold of right now and enter the ghost train ride. I dont want to be like this, how can I stop it? Is this a normal reaction for PTSD? Or is this somethign else? I want to be concooned in a safe place right now where life is taken away but cna't find that place. I feel mad right now.