Dear Friend,
It's not you or your life. It is the anxiety.
When you get the right diagnosis and treatment you will start feeling better. The other stuff won't bother you as much.

What medications are you on?
I think that you stopped taking the Abilify. Are you on anything else?

Tell the person who prescribed the Abilify that you need something else. In this business the squeaky wheel gets the grease.

Make them help you.
You can do it.

Mari